i’m so sick of who i have become. i am lazy, depressed and negative. ever since my bestfriend i have changed for the worst. i have pushed people away including my boyfriend that i am no longer together with. i have done drugs i should have never put in my body, including alcohol. i even put myself in jeopardy of not graduating. in way im glad my boyfriend and i broke up cause i need to find me again and deal with my problems instead of pushing them away, but on the other hand i miss him so much. i want to be my happy self again. i want to be more positive and put all that energy that i spent on being negative into the gym. i want to try to eat more. cause i have lost 25 pounds because i don’t eat anymore. so i am in the process of creating a diet plan, and some new goals!

- i tried talking myself out of it and saying i had too much to do. but i went!(: